A personal message from the site admin:

Regrettably I cannot continue to update this site right now. I am not sure that I will be able to do so again, at least in the foreseeable future.  A chapter has come to an end.

I offer my apologies to people who enjoy visiting these pages and for emails in recent weeks that have not received replies.

For all the latest Juliana related news for now (and maybe forever), please visit her official pages, the messageboard on Juliana’s site, the yahoo group / mailing list at This Is The Sound and other sites on the links page.

I’m also sorry if what I say here seems all rather pompous, sentimental and above all inappropriate; using this little fansite for what is my own 'blog'.

There are personal reasons behind this situation, none of which have anything to do with Juliana. Although I have spoken with her after shows like most of you, I don’t know her and to be honest have never had a wish to. This site has always been an unofficial place created by and for fans of her art.

As I type this, Juliana has just blogged about her depression, talking openly about her current situation. It goes without saying that she has our respect, support and best wishes right now.  As I say I have never had a fanboy desire to know her as a person but I do empathise with her writing on such issues as spoken through her music over the years and latterly through her book and blog posts. This is really why this site exists.

I have suffered from depression for a few years now. I only became aware of how acute this was in 2004. I have a number of anxiety issues and find it difficult to be proactive in the pursuit of happiness. I have an awkwardness in interpersonal contact at even the most basic level. Even answering the door for a pizza delivery remains a challenge. Other than a brief visit to Sweden to attend a Juliana show in 2006, I haven’t been able to travel abroad in the last 8 years for fear of being unable to walk away from a situation and to come home if I needed to.

In November 2007 something unexpected occurred in my life and has started to take me on a fantastic journey of recovery I had previously thought impossible.

I've made mistakes along the way since then. I will doubtless continue to do so in the future. I have focused a lot of energy into this site, falling back into my insular, complacent and selfish ways without moving on with pursuance of things that I have needed to do to gain further happiness, not just for me but more importantly for others in my life.  In particular I have spent a lot of time making the changes to the new look of this site in recent months, energy which should have been spent on something of infinitely more importance.

I have recently suffered a major setback and a loss that right now is devastating.  However, I accept that some things in life cannot be influenced or altered.  Events which are out of my hands have occurred which I hope are for the best and for everyone.  I accept and respect that. I have had the privilege of knowing someone who means more to me than they will ever know, someone who I want nothing but the very best for in life. I know that they will find it.

Juliana writes about a different experience in her blog today, but in many ways it is the same. All of us in life experience these challenges. Others cope and address them in different ways, and many have to deal with far more difficult challenges than me.  I handle matters in an intensely emotional and cerebral manner.  I suspect that most of the visitors to this site are of a similar personality.  It is doubtless why  Juliana as an artist connects with us.   She says today : "I am not dead inside.  I still care about right and wrong.  I refuse to succumb; to accept that I can't fix this.  I want desperately to be a better, happier, healthier, saner person and companion.  My will to endure is, so far, unkillable."

It is a universal heart-beat.

I may come back to it at some point, maybe sooner than I think.  It has, after all, given me pleasure to work on these pages and allow other fans like myself to share their memorabilia, photos and news and by consequence to promote Juliana’s work in our own way.

Furthermore, in recognition of all the people who have contributed to this site I will leave it as it is for now. However, I will not allow these pages to stagnate like so many of the older, out of date Juliana fansites. If I decide I cannot continue it is likely that the site will be removed completely. I will not be able to hand over the administration to anyone else.

I’d like to express a heartfelt thank you to Juliana for music which has inspired, entertained, comforted and enriched my life for two decades. I hope you continue to do so but if you do indeed walk away too, thanks for the memories. Many of us will have our most loved albums and for me that will always be Only Everything. That said, you can be justifiably proud of How To Walk Away. Alongside God's Foot it is the best thing you have ever done.

As these may be the last words I have to say on this site, I truly have had the time of my life as a direct result of running it.  It has been a blast.  I wish everyone I have encountered nothing but my love and very best wishes for the future.

I will always Remember November.

Craig

November 2008

Juliana read from her book and performed acoustically at New York's Housing Works Bookstore on 23 October 2008.

There's a photoshoot by Brad Walsh.  The set list and other links are here

The Fact Remains - uploaded to YouTube by thedailycrosshatch

Juliana interviewed by Kimberley Caldwell for M Vids.

Pictures from the UK and Ireland shows have been posted by Carsten at the Only Everything site.  Other fan photos at Flickr - London, London, Dublin.

Caroline Sullivan reviewed the London show (not altogether positively!) for The Guardian.

"I Picked You Up"- a new demo song as played on Juliana's recent US dates has been uploaded on Juliana's MySpace site.  Also on YouTube.  Video directed by Ryan Adams.

Pictures from Juliana's instore book reading / performance at L.A.'s Book Soup on 28 September are available on Flickr as uploaded by spiketop.  Also at pinkisthenewblog.com

She read from three chapters of When I Grow Up and performed My Baby..., Forever, and My Sister.

"there are no penises on the wall"

- Juliana impressed by the Bowery Ballroom decor in New York, as interviewed backstage by Salon (including audio).

Other interviews are at LA Weekly and Orlando Weekly

Juliana's interview and performance, broadcast on 89.7FM WMTD on 26 September 2008 can be heard at the WMTD site.

A short written excerpt of the interview is also here.

“I never planned on becoming famous, and I felt like a spectator when it was all happening”

- Juliana, interviewed in an Associated Press article on EnterpriseNews.com.

There's also a short telephone Q&A interview at SFGate.com

“I just don’t want there to be any mysteries surrounding me”

- Juliana interviewed by The Phoenix.

The site also carries an extract from When I Grow Up covering Juliana's heartbreaking candour over the 1995 European tour cancellation.

"At heart I am a librarian, a bird-watcher, a transcendentalist, a gardener, a spinster, a monk."

More from Chapter 16 (Cool Rock Boys) of Juliana's new book available at Rolling Stone.

Initial reports, photos, clips and links about Juliana's shows at the Virgin Megastore NYC (Sep 11), Bowery Ballroom NYC (Sep 12) and Brattle Theatre Boston (Sep 14) are now up.

Interviews:

sadiemagazine.com:

Boston Herald:

brightestyoungthings.com:

Performing This Lonely Love on The Tonight Show with Jay Leno.  25 August 2008.

Juliana on USA network tv.  Rejoice.